love upon love....

BismiAllah wa Al Hamdulillah was salaatu was salaam ala Rasulu Allah

wa ba'd...

As salaamu alaikum wa rahmatuallahi wa barakaatuh

I thought to share this video lecture from shaykh al aalamah Rabee al madkhali hafidhahullah!, SubhanAllah how i love this man, may Allah have mercy on him in this life and the next Ameen. It is amazing to hear our schoalrs talk, they are a people whom Allah has truely blessed with wisdom and knowldge, subhanAllah. I absolutely LOVE Shaykh Rabee, oh how i wish i could sit at his feet and learn from him, subhanAllah. May Allah make him from the dwellers of the highest ranks of Jannah Ameen.

with what proceeds...

PART ONE



PART TWO



May Allah allow the benefit intended to be the benefit gained by every person who hears this, and may Allah reward generously our Shaykh our father, Aalamah Rabee Al Madkhali, for verily Alah is Al Ghani and never becomes less in anything and is able to do all things. Ameen.

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Now i give you another video of my favorite Qari, may Allah preserve him, This one is pretty short, but its meaning is extraordinary as it has THE MOST BEAUTIFUL NAMES in it. May Allah aid us to memorize and learn, with its true meaning, His names and live our lives by the Quran and Sunnah Ameen, verily Allah is able to do all things.



may Allah have mercy on us all this ramadhaan, and make us from those whom He frees from the fire of hell in this month, or outside of it Ameen and may we be those who fast by all its meanings and not just meerly leaving food and drink Ameen . OH Allah this ummah is in need of rectification so rectify it , oh Allah aid us to your striaght way ameen, Ilaahana have mercy on us as you had mercy on Ibrahim and Moosa and Eesa and Muhammad Ameen Oh Allah make the hell fire haram upon us and cause us to enter jannah Ameen

Glorified and Supreme are YOU oh ALLAH over all that they associate with you, High and Exalted are you, I praise you and seek forgivness of my sins as no one can forgive sins except you

Was salaatu was salaamu ala Rasulu Allah.

Certainly it has been...

An extremely long time since i've blog on any write empyt space.

It's been so long seems like i've lived an entire lifetime and then some, so much of nothing and something has happened.

aht, BismiAllah wa Al Hamdulillah was salaatu was salaamu ala Rasulullah

wa ba'd...

The most noticable thing would probably be me moving from nasaau Al Hamdulillah, Living in a Muslim country has got to be one of the wonders of this dunyah, SubhanAllah...Every Salah time "Aaaaalllllahu Akbaaarrrr Allllllllllllllllllllllllllahhhhhu Akbar" the wonder of my day FIVE times a day. Yeah yeah, of course theres the bad things, but when you think about it, its not even that important.

I love it!! Al Hamdulillah Allahuma Barak, GRATFUL am I to Allah for this ni3'ma before me. It's Ramadhaan so I don't care much to blog , as I should be busying myself with righteous deeds , so InshaaAllah the night of eid or after i'll update. lol, I talk as if im talking to someone, ahh blogging is a funny thing.

laa ilaaha ila Allah

I leave you passerbyers ( i know! its not a word) with a video from my beloved Qari Muhammad Luhaydan ! May Allah preserve him Ameen!



well two videos hehe..



As salaamu alaikum wa rahmatuallahi wa barakaatuh

and the dilema....

but of course it lives in into a new year, with new dreams and hopes dropped and fallen apart. Who would have thought after the trips and plans and the talk it would still be at a blinking red light, the one that makes you stop and go and stop and go, then in the end you realize that you havent goten anywhere at all in the end, or so much time has passed more than what you can say for your distance and dispite your tireless efforts your still in eye distance of were you were yesterday or a month ago or 6 months ago or even 2 years ago.

oh and

Bismi Allah was salaatu was salaamu ala Rasulullah

wa ba'd...

As salaamu alaikum wa Rahmatullahi wa barkaatuh.

and if youre not Muslim and reading this then fristly become muslim, and secondly then contact me and i'll teach you the meaning, the blessing, and the wisdom of the above words InshaaAllah, oh and that too.

Anyway, on to the rest of the blog

Whilst this damaaj situation is highly frustrating and im so ready to leave, like ive been since 2006, I'm doing my best with bareing patience " Verily Allah is with the Patient" Al Baqarah.

Moreover, i've been missing from this blog world for quit sometime all of my blogs are empty and deserted, but MashaaAllah. Spare time for other activities and matters of life. So Al Hamdulillah to everything that Allah has willed will will and is willing now. For wisdom is in everything, although we know only but a little bit. Light, food for the soul!! Knowlegde more important than the food we eat, more critical than any other matter of life. It not only gives life, it sustains it, it resurrects it, and keeps it going until its commander it's Lord , Allahu Al Kareem Ar Raheem calls its host back, and when Allah calls us back may our parasit aka knowlegde be of benefit to us and not a proof agaisnt us Ameen! and we seek refuge in Allah from being like the companions of the monkeys and pigs Ameen!! We ask Allah to make us of those who gain knowlegde teach it to others and do NOT become arrogant and deceptive by it Ameen THUMMA Ameen!!

Life death then life again without a death ever to reach you, ohhh the beauty of such a life we've been given, even though it gets hard for us all, but Allah is able to do all things, sometimes i think we all forget but may Allah not cause us to account for what we forget or do unknowingly Ameen


I have alot to say but dont really know where to start, right now isnt the best time to try to write, my thoughts and ideas are scattered, may i'll grace this way InshaaAllah, in a few days, or a week or so when im relaxed or as my baby brother says "delaxed" lol. and calm.

Oh and for anyone who may read this , I dont know how popular he is, but theres a reciter i found out about maybe a year ago now, and i had never heard of him before, Hes a shaykh though, and so is his son, Big time shaykh too MashaaAllah, may Allah preserve our mashaykh Ameen!!!! and when they are no longer preserved may Allah replace them with our sons and even daughters Ameen!!
But yeah His name is:

Shaykh Muahmmad Al Luhaidan

His sons' name is:

Shaykh Salih Ibn Muhammad al Luhaidan

Shaykh Muhammad Al Luhaidan has the most beautiful voice ive ever heard in my life, it surpasses every qari ive ever heard by FAR MashaaAllah Al HAmdulillah!! May Allah protect it and preserve it Ameen! May He be of those people who are said to recite and ascend Ameen!

May Allah forgive me and have mercy upon me and the Muslimoon around the world. OH Allah we are in dying need of your mercy Ar Raheem So shed it on us, Yaa Rabb the Muslimoon are weak you are Strong anf well capable so strengthen them Ameen!! Yaa Al Baseer expose and destory the compainons of the monkeys and pigs and return to us our lands and our Masjid Aqsa Ameen!

And with Allah Al Kareem Al Adheem is the sucess.

Was salaamun alaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakaatuh

OumAbdellah

BE AWARE OF HASAD!!!

For verily the warning concerning is truth. For verily it does lay in the eyes of people and it grows in and foundates in their sick dieased hearts! Aoothubilllah!!!

By Allah, from this day forwad InshaaAllah, i will stop telling certain people stuff, for by Allah their eyes are deadly and their heart is very envious. I've seen this for some time, only i try to give the benefit of the doubt before i actually place a name, tittle, or whatever on, or to, someone. In this case, its been well long enough for me to see, the slimy dieased reality, of this situation.

Its a shame the envy that thrives in peoples chests, its horrible how some people act such a way to the people but in reality they are a snake in the grass, a wolf in sheeps clothing, and their intentions are deadly enough to knock you out, literally.

From now on , any and everything ( InshaaAllah) that goes on with me i wont tell it to a soul, except with those whom i know beyond doubt i can confide . SubhanAllah! it's like some people have the hearts of The Prophet Yusufs ( alayhis salaam) brothers.

Some people are just nosy for no reason, always concerning themselves with the affairs of others, but NEVER! with the intention to help or aid or to better the situation; rather only for some information to know, for someone to judge, for something to talk about, someone to critisize, something to think themselves ABOVE , they carry the diease of Envy and the diease and transgression of arrogance. Little is what these kinds of people know.

SubhanAllah!! SubhanAllah!!

Laa hawla wa laa qoowata illa billah!!

Laa illaha illAllah wa7dahu laa shareekala, lahul Mulku wa lahul Hamdu wa huwa 3la kuli shay'in qadir.

Laa illah ill ant, khalaqtani wa ana abdook, wa ana ala abdeek wa wa3'deek.

SubhanAllah wa bihamdi , SubhanAllahul 3dheem.

It's Been some time...

As salaamu alaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakaatuh wa ala ebaadah lahis saaliheen.

I've not had the time to update lately, normally i make these blogs and become bored with them respectivly, but this one im content with for the moment, just failed to have the words to write in it, and time to even think it thur fully. Allahu Mustaan.

MashaaAllah life is pretty smooth as i've taken my own advice in the post below this and gotten my own two feet back on the ground by the premission and mercy of my Lord Most High. Its very much an aid to my own bright ( InshaaAllah ) future.

Wow, on the forum i go to, which im a moderator of, its this major clean up and re-organization task/project thats taking place , and Al Hamdulillah I dont have power over the 'Basic Islam' section, because boy do those MOds, have their work cut out for them. Sadly, the next section to be worked on inshaaAllah is the 'general' section, and i happen to have powers over that section, which means my work is soon to come inshaaAllah.

Still, I couldnt imagine that section needing a third of the work that the Basic Islam section needs. Which means InshaaAllah the work shall be managable.

I've got this horrible headache , guy. It's like a spiltting pounding vibe. May Allah cure me Ameen. I think i need glasses thats how come. My vision hasnt been proper lately, and ive started having these headaches too, so im thinking prehaps thats the problem here; that i can not see properly so its causing strain on my head or however allz that goes.

InshaaAllah ive got to learn this Surah for class, SubhanAllah i've been so extradinarly behind this week. But inshaaAllah i'll learn it before i leave the rock this week inshaaAllah.

I went to the doctor today mashaaAllah, and i wanted to cry i felt so violated, i had to get an overall checkup and i had to put on one of those gown thingys, and take all my clothes off cept my undies of coures....SubhanAllah i wanted to cry, i dont see how in the world a women could undress herself like that in front of a man doctor and have him examing her in places no one should even LOOK at, and feel comfortable with that. I was at a women doctor, and wanted soooooooo much for it to just be over with, i hated it with a passion , subhanAllah even tho it wasnt even tht bad, only an outward body examination, but STILL! i was particularly naked! and this women was...ugh i dont even want to recall, i just hated it, its so unmodest SubhanAllah!! i felt violated having to take off my khaimar and juba and niqaab and put on that paper 'gown' =( ....I was sayin to myself over and over " Oh Allah guard my modesty, Oh Allah protect my dignity" .....Laa hawla wa laa quwata ila billah. May Allah make it easy Ameen.

Whats else i have to ramble about? hmm.....nothing really, ive got to sleep! im sooooo sleepy and this headache subhanAllah. Im going to inshaaAllah check in 'The Prophets medicine' and see whats the cures for headaches. InshaaAllah if I find some time in the near future i'll post up what it says about it.

May Allah keep us upon the path which is striaght, and surround us around that and those whom HE loves. Ameen!

Was salaamun alaykum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh

The Problem is...

I've fogotten who to take my problems and concers to. I've been tengled into a web of confusion, doubt and self pity. I've allowed my own fears, failed attemtps at unaccomplished dreams; to hinder me from a life a part.

And With the Wisdom of My Lord Most High Most Great, He has let me drag along likea slug on a rainy hot day, in this deceiving web long enough , for me to see what self pity , lack of determination and no reliance can do. Even when you think youre on top of things you must always remember to grab hold to your religion and not let it go. I love my Lord Most High , and it's time to show it from the inside out, for His sake alone!! Not because my own selfish goals, or not because my teacher expects it out of me, or because this and that person did it, or because they think i can; rather because my Lord has sent regulations upon this earth for those who wish to take heed , and He has made waajib upon me certains things, and He has sent parables and lessons in This Book Al Quraan Al Kaarim, for us to read, memorize, and implement into our daily lives.

Giving up hope, and having lack of determination will not do anything for a person who wishes to see Allah face on that Inveitable Day, which Our Lord promised .

The point is, rather i have someone around me to tell me keep going, or to believe in me, or to help me, i still have this Book to Guide me, and Allah to answer me in the third of the night. I have Allah Al 3'la at my disposal and I still try to handle affairs on my own. Astagfirullah. Yaa Rabbi.

I see now that it's not about who your teacher is, or what you use to do, or what your friends know, or how you USE to be, rather its who you ARe, what you do with the teacher you have, and how competetive you are in seeking knoweldge with your righteous and upright friends. Its about fighting Jihaadul nafs every single second of the day, its about Fighting in the case of Allah Subhanahu wa ta'la , for YOUR sake, meaning whilst in your grave and standing to be taken account of. All your writtings, your reading, your praying, your memorization is only a goodly Loan to Allah for YOUR own sake, not his, Allah is Al Ghaani and free of need from anyone and anything.

So its time I wake up and see where my focus should really be, and even when I thought i knew before this is Allah reminding me just in case i forgot, and surely I have forgotten. This is not a joke, this life of ours.
" Qul inni salaati wa nusuki wa mahyaati wa mamaati lillahi rabbil 3alaameen laa sharikalah..."
"Say my praying and my sacarficing and my living and my dying is for Allah, The Lord of all that exist, and I associate nothing onto him...."

And this is what we are meant to live by, "mahyaati wa mamaati" ; " My living andmy dying" you know what that means? it means " kulli nafsi qaaidatil maut" ; " Every soul shall taste death" Which means we must prepare for it, and we must lend a goodly loan to Allah so we may have something to show for us on that day, keeping in mind that Allah has no need of us, or we're not doing this because Allah 'needs' us to, rather He is Rich and free from all needs, and we need HIM!

So may Allah azza wa jal make all of the Mu'min strive in his cause. Make our living and dying truely for His sake, and His sake alone. because " Verily in the rememberance of Allah do hearts find rest"....and...."Verily the party of Allah is the sucessful party"...and..." Those who will be given their books in their right hand will say "here read my record""

and..." Those who will be given their book in their left hand will say I wish that i had not been giving it and i wish that I knew not what my account was I wish that it ( meaning death) would have been my end"

May Allah subhanahu wa ta'la have mercy upon us and make us from those who recieve their record in their Right hand and be delighted on that day, and whose graves are spacious and The Jannah is opened up for Allahuma AMEEN!!!!!!!

Yaa Al Ghafoor forgive me for where i fall short, what i forgot, and what i did knwoingly and what i did unknowingly Ameen Yaa Ar Raheem have mercy upon me like you had mercy upon Ebraahim when you saved him from the fire, and have Mercy upon me like you had mercy on the people of the cave Ameen. Guide me and make me from ashabul yameen Ameen Set me upright and make me from al mutaqoon Yaa Dhul Jalaali wal Ikraam Ameen.

Sufficent for me is Allah, Rabbus Samawaat wal ard. And no one and nothing is more Beloved by me than Allah azza wa jal and Rasulullah ( sallallahu alahi wa salaam).

"Fasabbih bismi rabbikal Adheem"
"So Glorified be the name of your Lord The Superme"

Was salaamu alay

Al Muslim Akhul Muslim!!

Qaala Rasulullah sallallahu alaihi wa salaam "........At taqwa haahuna, ( wa huwa pointed ila sadruh thalaatha marrah) Al Muslim Akhul Muslim......" Rawaahu Muslim ( if im not mistaken)

Translations: The Prophet Sallallahu alayhi wa salaam said ".....The taqwa, it is here ( and he pointed to his chest three times) The Muslim is the Brother to the Muslim....." Related by Muslim. ( If Im not mistaken)

I have two things which i like as hobbies:

1. Martial arts, weaponary, fighting, archery, boot camp style training, sports....or in so many words anything which has to do with a combat skill , or a fighting defense skill at whole. or some intense form of workout.

2. Marine life. Animals at large, but particularly the marine life. Its something majestic about them over the land animals. Allah is ever Most Wise.

So now youre probably sracthing your head wondering what does that hadeeth and my hobbies have to do with each other..? Well its indirectly connected.

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I was just wacthing this Navy Seals video about how they train, the techniques and all that stuff, drills and generally that sort of thing. In one of the videos they have to semi learn some form of martial arts as well as boxing alongside wrestling. So in the course of the video one of the seals said something that made my stomach turn , his statement was " Its a competition, yes, when we wrestling each other, but we're 'brothers' so its never any hard feelings, its just a competetion."

*stare blankly*

I was taken aback a bit. I looked at that and the rest of the videos for that matter, and i said to myself, "wow" these people consider each other brothers, warriors alongsie one another, fighting hand and hand ( even if its only in theory, they are trained and molded to believe this) , and they are doing this, with all that loyalty, and trust, because you MUST trsut someone in order to think he'll 'cover' you when youre under attack, their motto of never leveing a man down, never leaving a man behind, their STRICT! system of respect, and honour and loyalty and bond and all these things. With not a word of guidance From Allah subhanahu wa ta'la, again taken aback.


Now dont misunderstand, I wasn't impressed with them, i was sadden at this Ummah; seeing how the Prophet sallalhu alahi wa salaam has told us over and over in many places about how we are to be one to another, and directly tells us we're brothers one to another, and that we shouldnt backbit one another, or steal from each other, or undercut one another, or belittle one another, or hold each other in comtempt. THAT is our deen, it is suppose to be what this Ummah is all about, how we are suppose to be, yet you have people stomping all over us , swatting us out of the way like mere dragon flys, demolishing all the hardwork that the ashaab and the Propeht sallallahu alahi wa salaam work for. All of our Muslim countries slowly but surely perishing, all of our brotherhood, slowly but surely fading, they dont even need to fight us anymore, we just havent put the sword down and returned to our religion yet, so they let us fight ourselves. It sad, because i think, this ummah is not only NOT at jihaad when we NEED to be for all the flith and evil that exist, but we CANT fight jihaad no matter how much we wanted to, because NONE of the conditions of jihaad are met, with 2.3 or so BILLION! Muslims around the globe, we cant fight jihaad? SubhanAllah *lowers head in shame* .

Or stepping down from that extreme, 2.3 semi billion Muslims on the globe and we can't help one another in worldly needs? Thers no way to be more Muslims owned , sharee'ah ran businesses? Theres no way to have more Muslim owned, Sharee'ah conducted schools? NAY! but yet! what we do have is Muslim owned corner stores with every sin from the front to the back cover of the Quran. Every prohibition its made you see in their stores. This is what you see. And they wonder they war in Iraq " oh my" oh my NOTHING! . RETURN back to your religion and maybe the kufr will get their FOOTS from your necks. Stop being so cowardly and fleeing leaving your women and children to be handeled however these kaafiroon see fit, and you will not be so oppressed. ALLAH SAID "THE KUFAR HAS NOT BEEN SENT AS WATCHES OVER YOU" and what does YOU mean? it means THE MUSLIMSSSSS!!!!!!!! THIS UMMAH! Allah raised HIGH the rank of the Ashaab of the Prophet sallallahu alaihi wa salaam, EVEN with their small numbers....in their fight against the Romans for persia, it was 200,000 romans and a mere 44,000 Muslims. And they not only didnt RUN! but they FOUGHT! and they conquered...allllll because of their keeping firm to their religion. Believing in Allah, trusting in Allah, hoping, fearing LOVING ALLAH! Because they were a people who understand that all you have IS ALLAH!

Yaa Rabbus samawaati wal ard. *sigh*

We're suppose to be brothers and sisters man, whats so hard about that? dont these Muslims realize they when they jump off the deep end and start doing all sorts of sin and trangression , that they send the name 'Islam' down that same rut? Is this not plain to the eye view? Do you not know that this Ummah is ONE, and what you do affects this entire body, this entire ummah.

Yaa Rabb please turn us Back to the Religion of Ibraahim and Muhammad Ameen!

Subhanaka lahuma wa bihamdika wa ashhadu anlaailaha illaah wa asghfiruka wa atoobuilay.